Oh so retard--

I actually was and am lacking of ideas to write. I had been brainstorming that my head felt heavy and I certainly was and am not in the norm of my usual boring feels. So this is it-- a rant. It is still considered as a post, so yeah.
I entered some writing contests. The prompts given was sickeningly stressing. Too much of angst feels. To write a story with a full-blown of negative thoughts, negative feels, stressing behaviour, negative this, negative that. And heck, I couldn't let myself to be opted out. What a waste of my time feeling angsty if in the end I just stop.
Dude, I put myself in the depressing scenes of the story and here I am-- feeling my insides are all shattered into dusts as if I am the heartbroken character. What a cool to be cherished of 'oh so retard' moment in my life.
*Derpin' as I am emotionally confused, then feeling the fatigue in my head and bamm! angst, angst, angst, hurt/comfort, hurt/comfort, hurt/comfort.

Sprawling,
cramp.

p/s: dude! Why am I the only one who had been posting shits here? You better post something! AHAHA IF YOU ARE READING OF COURSE.